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Digitised lumen print with carnations and menstrual blood. Buried 2 August. Unburied 29 August 2022. This animation is part of the on-going project the motherhood that wasn’t. The images in this NFT series have been developed exclusively for the Voice x Photo Vogue NFT Residency. I’m infertile. While I never wished to be a mother, the concept of infertility is part of my reality. I question if this is due to social expectations or a biological need. With the making of this project, I seek to understand my lived experiences of infertility caused by endometriosis. The project aims to seek strategies in communicating these experiences within the public consciousness. the motherhood that wasn’t also acts as a catharsis, in which I mourn the loss of my fertility. I also mourn the loss of the choice I was unable to make rationally, the choice my own body took from me.